Wednesday, July 20, 2005
blog to fend off boredom
So I'm at a deadline, and instead of risking extended downtime by spending my low-production cycles playing Sonic Heroes, I'm gonna spend it by blogging. That way I keep writing and as soon as I can come up with more production-quality copy I can alt-tab directly back to work without getting obsessed by the level I'm trying to pass.
I was thinking I wanted to highlight something else from the sermon I mentioned a couple of days ago. Its not just the (personally) neat lesson about affecting future generations, but its how it jives with some theories I've read about.
The thing about how curses originate from negative words, its so self-defeating prophecy. Think negatively of yourself and your surroundings and your actions lead to suboptimal performance and results, thus you curse yourself. There's more....
Let me get back to you on that one.
In other news I had a thought last night while in bed that humor when analysed to its core is the celebration of misfortune or misactions of others. Things that are funny as far as I can recall are all 1)things which don't 'normally' happen, 2)tend to set back the progress of the actors (or show the deficient property of said actors), and 3)happen to someone else. We find something funny when it reveals the backwardness, the stupidness, of someone or something. To make fun of someone. Is humor really this negative? Or is my mind too filled with negative humor? Can someone give me an example of positive humor?
Speaking of literature I was thinking that writing opinion columns in Kompas is a great way to make some extra money. Perhaps not only Kompas, but any local newspaper which accepts opinion articles. Its a great way to make money but you gotta be relevant and intelligible, though. When the special section on copyright came up about two saturdays ago I had thought of making one. When GAM proposed changes to state laws to allow local political parties I had also thought of making one. Right now...
Aw hell, that's it. I'm playing Sonic.
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a couple of hours later...
Okay that was fun. Luckily Mom called to make us have our nightly prayer session. Its my sister's 18th birthday, incidentally. My brother bought a cake from Makarizo Bakerzin or whatever. It was delicious; not a Tiramisu but the same sort of cake where you should put it in the freezer or it would be too melty and when you try to cut it it'd be a mess So we only ate like a quarter of it. I ate a piece, congratulated my sister,and now I'm back in front of the PC.
Ten of fourteen sub-articles. The first of two. Both to be finished at eight tomorrow morning. Its now 2238 hrs.
I guess its nice to have an office job. Regular pay and all. You don't live day by day, constantly searching for the next job, hoping the next one would be big. But I've tried the office thing. I died. Well, almost.
Its not that I can't stay awake 24 hours straight, its that I can't keep doing it and maintain optimal performance. Its like when I was at that creative house my first project was beautiful (at least that's what Nick said the client said), but unfortunately it wasn't what they were looking for. I had poured a good serving of my soul into that stars thing, even though I can't take credit for all of the idea (or execution for that matter) since its a team thing. But the arm is mine, everyone else can claim everything else, but the arm is mine.
Okay so Andri gave suggestions to fix up the hand's shadows. But I reimplemented those suggestions myself into my version. Aw hell, so I can't claim any element wholly for myself. Whatev.
Anyway after finishing the star thingy in such a short time its like I can't come up with anything more afterwards. Too tired. Its like I do shotgun sessions: take one job, do it under pressure, make it as fantastic as possible, then take a long break once its completed. Because afterwards I'd have no energy left.
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later the following morning
Dang, I slept. Yeah well, at least I woke up about an hour ago. The small ones are done, now only the big tenants are left. I should do some websurfing for Gramedia and Matahari. Think I better pack up and go to Multiplus.
But I must explain to you how all this mistaken idea of denouncing pleasure and praising pain was born and I will give you a complete account of the system, and expound the actual teachings of the great explorer of the truth, the master-builder of human happiness. No one rejects, dislikes, or avoids pleasure itself, because it is pleasure, but because those who do not know how to pursue pleasure rationally encounter consequences that are extremely painful. Nor again is there anyone who loves or pursues or desires to obtain pain of itself, because it is pain, but because occasionally circumstances occur in which toil and pain can procure him some great pleasure. To take a trivial example, which of us ever undertakes laborious physical exercise, except to obtain some advantage from it? But who has any right to find fault with a man who chooses to enjoy a pleasure that has no annoying consequences, or one who avoids a pain that produces no resultant pleasure?
But I must explain to you how all this mistaken idea of denouncing pleasure and praising pain was born and I will give you a complete account of the system, and expound the actual teachings of the great explorer of the truth, the master-builder of human happiness. No one rejects, dislikes, or avoids pleasure itself, because it is pleasure, but because those who do not know how to pursue pleasure rationally encounter consequences that are extremely painful. Nor again is there anyone who loves or pursues or desires to obtain pain of itself, because it is pain, but because occasionally circumstances occur in which toil and pain can procure him some great pleasure. To take a trivial example, which of us ever undertakes laborious physical exercise, except to obtain some advantage from it? But who has any right to find fault with a man who chooses to enjoy a pleasure that has no annoying consequences, or one who avoids a pain that produces no resultant pleasure?
But I must explain to you how all this mistaken idea of denouncing pleasure and praising pain was born and I will give you a complete account of the system, and expound the actual teachings of the great explorer of the truth, the master-builder of human happiness. No one rejects, dislikes, or avoids pleasure itself, because it is pleasure, but because those who do not know how to pursue pleasure rationally encounter consequences that are extremely painful. Nor again is there anyone who loves or pursues or desires to obtain pain of itself, because it is pain, but because occasionally circumstances occur in which toil and pain can procure him some great pleasure. To take a trivial example, which of us ever undertakes laborious physical exercise, except to obtain some advantage from it? But who has any right to find fault with a man who chooses to enjoy a pleasure that has no annoying consequences, or one who avoids a pain that produces no resultant pleasure?
